I love weight loss!

Yes, I do love weight loss.  I wish I could have lost it on my own, but my body just won't allow it.  I'm so thankful that, even though I spent five days with my family over the Christmas holiday and ate a lot (for me) while I was there, I still lost 6 lbs!  I'm now down 59 lbs!  Pretty much 60 lbs in 3 months, 20 lbs per month.  Love that!  I've got to keep losing so I can lose another 20 lbs before my February appointment with my GP.  He and I have a bet: he thinks I'll be 220, I want to be 210.  I need to lose another 15 lbs by then so I'm going to try HARD to get the weight off!

I have learned some interesting things though. I really have to be careful about what I eat and how I eat.  I can eat pretty much anything, but I may suffer for it later.  But I also have to eat a certain way.  I have to chew the hell out of whatever I eat and the bites have to be small.  If I forget (which I do) and eat normal bites and chew normally rather than the overkill I need to I tend to get the bite stuck in my esophagus.  Talk about painful!  It burns like hell.  It won't go down and my body just expels it.  Yup, it gets ralphed back up, but once it's done it's done and I'm back to my old self.  Chicken makes me sick more than it doesn't.  It's just too dense.

I'm feeling good. My hubby and I are walking at night and I think that is really helping my weight loss.  I can really see my old body again, but there is still a lot of loose fat/skin going on.  I only hope that as the fat gets lost, the skin snaps back.  I'm kind of thinking that it won't completely snap back, I'll probably need to have skin resection surgery (GACK!), but I'm sure I'll finally be healthy and feeling much better when it's all over.  I'm looking forward to being healthy and happy and able to do all the things I used to do as well as some new things I've always wanted to do.  I'm going to rock climb, kayak, zip line, maybe even run a marathon (as long as my knees hold up).  What I'd really like to do is get on the Amazing Race to see if I can really perform like I used to.  It's going to take some serious getting into shape, but I'm pretty sure I can do that.  Being over 40 could throw a slight wrench in the works, but I'm not going to let it stop me.  I have to get healthy and I'm GOING to get healthy and enjoy the life I was meant to!

Plateau, Schmateu...I'm down 3 lbs!

So I was on a shitty plateau.  I didn't expect it within a month of my surgery, but I've been gaining and losing the same flipping pound for a week. That is...until this morning.  I lost 3 lbs overnight!  Wooohooo!  To aid that I'm going to have to start exercising for real.  I didn't want to have to do a whole lot, but I'm going to start walking and working my way into yoga and pilates.  The walking will have to be my cardio, I have bad knees and can't run or anything that requires a lot of knee bending.  Any exercise I do should help even more in my weight loss, but right now, walking is it.

Speaking of walking, the house we are under contract on we are now going to walk away from.  Turns out that the house appraised for way under what they were asking so they don't want to pay closing costs if they have to lower their asking price to the appraisal price. Unfortunately we're going with 100% financing through Doug's VA Benefit so we can't put any money down.  If they don't like that then we're moving on and not looking back.  Thankfully we have an out.  We just have such a short window of time now if we want to close before the end of the year.  Stress!  But maybe that will aid in my need to exercise, I should use exercise to cut my stress.

Speaking of stress, the end of the year is WAY too stressful with work, the holidays, holiday travel, and, for me, the issue of what can I and can I not eat during this crazy close to the year.  Crazy for sure, but so far so good. Now, if I could only get the men in my house to eat healthy instead of eating all the bread and pasta.  You would think we are Italian by how much red sauce and pasta is consumed in this house, WITH garlic CHEESE bread.  That's my boys.  Thinking they have to stuff their gullets full and then moaning about how full they are.

Suck it boys.  I have no sympathy for you.

Starting Weight: 283 lbs
Current Weight: 257 lbs
Total Loss to Date: 36 lbs

Finally, real food....sort of

Well, I finally graduated to pureed and soft foods this week.  Finally!  I have been eating things like soup, egg salad, cottage cheese, yogurt (still), and that's about it besides the usual protein shakes and Isopure clear protein drink.  I did have a strawberry/blackberry smoothie this morning for breakfast.  Added vanilla flavored whey protein to it.  I didn't make much but I was super full when I was finished!  Almost over full.

Tonight, when I got home from work, I decided to eat a fat free, sugar-free, chocolate pudding (Swiss Miss cup).  It was tasty, about a quarter to half cup I guess.  But, holy shit did I feel full when I was done!  I am losing steadily about 1LB per day.  I have noticed a bit of constipation, but I guess that is to be expected after this type of surgery and the minimal amounts I eat that are mostly protein.  I have added some fruits into my lunch and breakfast to try to "move things along" so to speak and today it finally worked.  Whew!

I'm still a bit tired as the day wears on past 1pm or 2pm in the afternoon.  I guess I'm still recuperating some.  I feel pretty normal aside from staying up way too late on nights I work, and getting up way too early.  More sleep per night is in my future for sure!

I'm lying in bed right now and I have no reason for it other than I was tired when I got home.  I haven't had any protein for dinner yet so I guess I need to move my fat (but getting smaller) ass out of this comfy bed and figure out my food!  Also Survivor is on tonight so Doug is expecting me to be sitting right next to him while we watch it.  Our TiVo is FULL on both t.v.'s and I have no idea when I'm going to have time to watch it all. We're about to run out of room on them.  Maybe this weekend I'll have a marathon TiVo session.  After I clean the bathroom...always.

9/29/10 - Starting weight 283 lbs
10/20/10 - Current weight 255 lbs
Total Lost - 28 lbs

I'm a new me!

Wow!  A week after my Roux & Y gastric bypass and I'm feeling almost 100%!!! I didn't know how I was really going to feel, but I'm happy.  I'd be happier if the hubby would stop eating spaghetti, hamburgers, grilled cheese, ice cream, etc., in front of me.  Weird though, it doesn't bother me as much as I thought it would.  It's like I know that I'm going to feel like total shit if I even get a crumb of his unhealthy food on my tongue.  Seriously!

Yesterday I mixed organic, fat-free, skim milk with my Isopure protein shake.  OH HOLY SHIT...literally.  My stomach was churning and making THE most disgusting groans and gurgles.  I spent a bit of time in the restroom at work and prayed that no one else would come in while I suffered! So, it took 2 shakes and a yogurt for me to figure out it was the milk.  I am now officially lactose intolerant as far as I'm concerned. Milk SCARES me!

I've managed to lose 24 lbs since I started the pre-surgery liquid diet a week before my surgery.  The diet started on 9/29.  My surgery was on 10/5.  I'm completely amazed at the weight that is dropping off so quickly, but at the same time I'm still on a liquid diet and learning what I can and cannot tolerate.  So some days are better than others.  I haven't exercised really, but I'm up and down walking and moving at work and at home so I think a slow transition to walking and eventually visiting a personal trainer may be my way to go. I can't afford a trainer for more than a session or two, but I was quite a workout queen in my thinner days so I feel pretty good about being able to take what the trainer provides and continuing on my own.  I also want to start riding a bike and walking with my husband.  Plus I plan on swimming as much as possible when we move into our new house.

Well, that is if our offer is accepted.

We're on pins and needles waiting to hear if the seller has accepted our offer today.  We moved to South FL in December of '09 and wanted to wait to purchase a house until we knew the area better. Our lease on this house is up on December 15th and we want to be closed and moved in before that date.  We have two weeks to get a 30 day close so if this falls through we have a backup but want to continue to find what we want.  That includes a pool!  Living in FL, there are lots of houses with pools, but not many we have seen are move in ready.  Ugh, there is so much crap out there!

Oh well, time for bed.  I'm one sleepy bitch.

Is this the year??? It BETTER be!

I guess it's a new year so I need to make my same old resolution.

Can you guess what it is?

I know you can. It's the same damn one I know you make too.

YES, lose weight!! DAMMIT! It never works.

The problem is I'm unhealthy. I don't get any healthier by staying heavy. I'm REALLY heavy for a 5'4" gal. I could go on "The Biggest Loser." That's how fat I am. I'm sick of being that way and I really need to make this the year I lose it all. I need to lose 125 lbs. YES, that's right.

This is my last ditch effort at dieting. If it doesn't work this time I am heading to the Operating Room for surgery. Much as I loathe the idea of surgery, I am uncomfortable in my own skin. I can't cross my legs. I can't tie my shoes without cutting off my oxygen. I can't sleep well, I keep snorring and I think I have sleep apnea. Plus I have metabolic syndrome X which really keeps me fat. Basically, I feel like shit.

I could use the support. How about leaving me some encouraging words and a short story about any success stories of friends or family who have lost weight? I'm curious to know how others are finding success with their weight loss. I'm willing to try anything!

Thanks to all who show support. I look forward to reading your advise and stories.

I wish he'd just come out already....

...of the closet of course. My friend, whom I'll call "Pat" doesn't seem to want to take that fateful step into the homosexual world, or at least he's not willing to admit to his real sexual orientation. I don't really understand it. No one I know, especially not his family, would judge him. They would say "finally!"

Seriously.

He's not so much to look at, but he's a very warm hearted person. He's tends to be a negative Nelly, though. He's moody too, and OH MY GOD can he talk. He doesn't shut up. He also thinks he's the best cook on the planet and is very weight conscious.

Okay, sounds like I'm describing a woman doesn't it?

See!!!????

Come out of the closet "Pat!" We will accept you for who you are! No one likes it when someone pretends to be straight and tries WAY too hard at it, though is not very convincing. When you work that hard to convince people you're straight...it's pretty obvious you're trying to hide something.

Am I alone in my thinking here???

Formerly Known As....

The Divine Ms. M, in case you missed me.

Well, I'm back, but the problem is I couldn't remember my log in for my old blog. the url I could remember, forget about loggin' in!

So, it's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new....not so new actually, but it's me again.

Hello. Didja miss me?